....In Just One Year

What happens in a year?

Winter gives way to Spring.  Spring holds space for Summer.   And, Summer welcomes the Fall.  The appearance of twilight, dawn and dusk are as certain as the sunrise and sunset of each day in the year.

Everything else is unpredictable.   

Today, September 18th, would have been my one year anniversary with Aaron.  And, it looks nothing how I imagined it would.

A lot can happen in a year.

I used to be certain that Aaron’s life would turn around.  I knew that his concerns were only temporary; his financial struggles would not only cease to exist by July of 2016 but his portfolio would grow exponentially given the immediate success of his pool business.  He just needed to give it one more month...

I knew with just a little more time he would feel more confident running his pool business.  He even knew this to be true.  He would reflect on how uncomfortable he felt when first embarking on a motorcycle technician career only to graduate #1 in his class and become a highly respected, knowledgeable and experienced mechanic.  Aaron started that pool route in the busiest time of the year and he was doing great.  Eventually, business would have slowed down and he would have been able to take a deep breath and gear back up for the following summer.  He just needed to give it two more months.

Knowing that his biggest stressors would be eliminated by today’s date, I pictured him proposing to me.  He was really anxious to be married and I thought we would be officially engaged on our one year anniversary.  We recently talked about where we’d eventually get married - either at the cabin in front of the Lover Trees or perhaps the Grand Canyon.   We talked about having a small wedding; just his parents and a few friends.  I talked a lot about the wedding cake since it’s my favorite part of any wedding celebration.  But the proposal definitely needed to come first and what better day than on our one year anniversary?

He just needed to give that 3 more months.

A lot can happen in just one year.